I have a love hate relationship with weddings. I love them because they are fun and I get to dress up and see other people. I hate them because it makes my patience and little time clock tick a little faster. It makes me want more than the one date guys and the friends with benefits( which I don’t mind at all) but you want more you want that someone that is mentally ready to think about settling down. Thats hard though because I don’t want to have to keep starting over guy after guy I just want it to be someone I already know because I went through all the motions once I gave everything and now I guess I just don’t know how to go about it anymore. I’m tired of scaring guys away.